Berenstain Bears or Berenstein Bears? Shift in Reality?

This evening, I came across a mystery that has opened my mind allowing to the possibility reality shifts, or parallel realities. It all started with a book, “The Berenstain Bears” by Stan and Jan Berenstain.

The problem is, I remember it being spelled with an “E”, as in “The Berenstein Bears”, while the author’s last name remained with an “A”. I seem to not be the only one who thinks this.

A couple of years ago when I had seen the title of the book with an “A”, I thought little of it. I just presumed that they finally changed the name to match the spelling of the author, and that was that.

However, I came across an article, “The Berenst(E)in Bears Conspiracy Theory that has Convinced the Internet there are Parallel Universes“, by Mack Lamoureux suggesting that the original title was indeed spelled with an “E”.

Further searches show that many people believe that the books and shows indeed were spelled with an “E”. How could this be? Could it be a mass spelling mistake?

I remember as a child having been told to write down the books I was reading or liked and I spelled it with an “A”. I also remember that I was told that it was wrong and I had to go back and check the title of the book. It was with an “E” and from that day forth, I was able to spell the books title.

The following is worth the read, and is an article by Clyde Lewis of Ground Zero Radio, “The Stain on Stein,” which delves further into this mystery as well as other similar ones.

This is interesting considering I also remember some other changes, such as Anne Rice’s, “Interview with the Vampire” being (in my memory) “Interview with A Vampire”.

Does anyone else have these memories or more??

Nicki Minaj Vs. Taylor Swift Music Video Nomination

Bernadette Rocha

22 July 2015

I read an article from CNN by Wilfred Chan, “Twitter Defends Nicki Minaj after Taylor Swift Feud“, about how Nicki Minaj and Taylor Swift seem to be at odds with one another via Twitter about race, gender and body image in the music industry. How did this start? Nicki Minaj’s music video, Anaconda, wasn’t nominated for an award, so she began what seemed to turn into a twitter war between her and Taylor Swift.

As someone who prefer’s Korean Pop (give it a try), I don’t really listen to a whole lot of American music aside from when it is on television, the radio, or someone I know is playing it. That said, once I read this article, I knew I had to watch each video so that I can give an objective view on each of the women’s music video’s that are under fire as to why I think the video should or should not have been nominated for an award. Before I get started on my analysis, I would like to comment that I did happen to enjoy both of the music videos, albeit in different ways. Let’s dive in.

* Warning: Spoiler Alerts *

Nicki Minaj — Anaconda

The song opens with the famous lines by Sir Mix-A-Lot’s “Baby Got Back“, “My anaconda don’t want none unless you got buns hun”. Nicki Minaj is shown staring at the screen and shaking her butt. There are a lot of curvy women showing off their body’s and more importantly, their butts. By the 1 minute mark, the message shown is clearly about butts, drugs (mention of pills), and sex (mention of a guy and the repeated “Anaconda”). There is no originality to this video, as Nicki Minaj seems to be relying wholly on sexuality in order to gain attraction to the video. There is no harmonizing and there are no clear transitions. This song relies heavily on a song and beat that is not hers to begin with. She mentions within the video, “fuck those skinny bitches…fuck you if you skinny,” and she gives a guy what appears to be a lap dance. There is no clear purpose, no thesis to this song or video.

Taylor Swift — Bad Blood

Right away, you see someone crashing onto a table in an office and see a fight break out. This instantly lets you know a story of some sort is about to pan out and draws you in so that you can find out more (all within 9 seconds). By the 18 second mark, you are seeing women doing some fighting and above their heads are names such as: Catastrophe and Arsyn. All within 15 seconds. Instantly hooked, you are drawn in further. What did these office workers do to deserve this? The woman are dressed in seductive attire, yet are showing that they are more than just women. They are fighting machines. Are they fighting crime, or are they the criminals? It looks like all of the office workers they were fighting were blind-folded men in suits. Were they fighting corporate sexism? At the 33 second mark, you see a rift between the two women begin. Now they are fighting one another. Why?

The song goes transitions from harmonizing to rap, as does the portion with Kendrick Lamar begins as there is also a transition from the earlier office scene to a more of a futuristic medical bay. When he raps, “I don’t hate you but I hate you” it shows reality in a grey area. There are many reasons to end up in this state, such as bad blood, as the song suggests.

As the song transitions from medical bay to getting fitted with a uniform, Taylor Swift, or “Catastrophe” begins to harmonize once more. This is a fluid transition from Lamar’s part to Swift’s part as we move from initial conflict, to what seems to be a possible all out war for the betrayal from earlier. At 1:23, Catastrophe walks into what seems to be the main base of operations where her fellow soldiers are also their with their own specialties, gearing up for a fight.

All in all, this video has a clear message, one that shows that even though some may be united at first, incidences occur that draw people apart that no amount of apologizing or “fixing” can change what had happened. This video clearly shows a beginning, middle and end. There are clear transitions which flow with a kind of classy grace that comes with a skilled director and actors. The writer of this script clearly had a vision in mind when the writer matched the song to the video. There was a clear purpose for a targeted audience of just about anyone who enjoyed a good action movie. In short, the whole team performed an excellent job with this music video. In fact, this could be made into a feature film. This music video was so well made that it could act as the trailer alone.

When you break down both of the videos, there is no wonder as how Taylor Swift’s Bad Blood was nominated for an award and how Nicki Minaj’s Anaconda (where she clearly disrespected thin women) was not. Perhaps, rather than arguing with Taylor Swift, Nicki Minaj could collaborate with her in creating a more artistic video that would have a shot at nomination the next time an awards ceremony comes along.

Do you agree or disagree? Leave a comment below!

Video Games a College Sport?

Bernadette Rocha
22 July 2015

Upon awakening, and firing up my computer as I usually do, I came across this interesting CNN article by Jessica Ravitz in my Facebook news-feed. The article, “Varsity Gamers: Making History and Dumbfounding Parents“, goes on to talk about how a school in Chicago, Robert Morris University, recognizes gaming as an actual sport. They even offer scholarships to students interested in gaming to come to their school.

The students’ game of choice? League of Legends. They practice for their tournament as much as anyone participating in a varsity sport would. People think that the idea of gaming as a varsity sport is ridiculous. Why is that? Gaming is hard. As much as I enjoy video games (I am partial to Halo and Mass Effect, but then again, I haven’t really played in a while), unless I dedicate myself hours on end, there is no way I will be able to be on par with those who play hardcore. If you think about it, not only does it require great mental capacity, but you also must have excellent hand-eye coordination.

It’s not like varsity gaming wouldn’t be able to generate a fan base either. All you need to do is to go on YouTube and type in the name of any of the major games and you will find commentary, walk-throughs, and even cos-play. Conventions are a great way to know other’s in the gaming industry and to be able to network. There are movies and anime about gaming as well, such as my personal favorite, “Log Horizon“. A varsity player might even pique the interest of gaming company’s who wish to have them test out and promote future games. Who knows, maybe the military will even take notice of their skill with hand-eye coordination, their ability to work together as a team, and their ability to collaborate and strategize in order to defeat the enemy. It’s a “win-win” for all.

At any rate, this is a great way for the University to generate public attention, and to gain student interest in their institution for higher learning. Providing scholarships to students was a smart move. It shows their dedication to this idea. Perhaps other Universities have had this same idea in mind, but were hesitant to make it a reality. Now that this has come to light, others can follow suit and a video game revolution can be born and I’ve got to say, for people like me who couldn’t give a you-know-what about current conventional sports such as football, this is excellent news!

The following two quotes are my “two cents” which I posted to the comments section of the facebook newsfeed:

Anyone can play a video game, but there are games out there that take a certain degree of professional skill — which I personally lack. Just like anyone can play baseball, basket ball, football, etc, but to play professionally, there requires a certain degree of skill. Just because video games are not physically challenging, does not make them any the less mentally challenging. Chess is considered a sport which requires no physical components and entirely requires a full conscious approach. There is no reason that video games could not be in the same arena.” — Bernadette Rocha

“Now, this is the team I want to find if ever trapped in the game of League of Legends like in the anime Log Horizon.” — Bernadette Rocha


Ravitz, Jessica. “Varsity Gamers: Making History and Dumbfounding Parents.” CNN. Cable News Network. Turner Broadcasting System, Inc., n.d. Web. 22 July 2015.

How to Avoid your own Horror Story

Bernadette Rocha
11 July 2015

Steps for surviving your own ghost story (inspired from every creepy Asian horror film I’ve ever seen):

1. If you see a girl facing away from you and you get a creepy vibe. Leave.

2. If that same girl has unnaturally long hair. Leave.

3. If you’re on the road and you see a creepy girl wandering on the highway, and you get that creepy vibe. Leave.

4. If your house starts making noises, if you see images in your mirror and turn around and they aren’t there.


Under no circumstances are you to:
Get their attention
Get a closer look
Try to touch them
Ask if they are alright

Result if you fail this survival guide:

Your own horror story.

Breaking Away from School for a Moment

Bernadette Rocha, 22 June 2015

While a sound education is key to acquiring a successful career, especially one of premium quality, it is also important to step back and take care of one’s own self for some time, even if it is only for a short summer break.

Having finally given in and gone back to school back in Spring of 2014 (graduated high school in 2005), I just wanted to get my degree, even if it’s just an AAS, and do it as quick as I could. I would enroll in no less than three 5-credit courses at a time on top of my internship (which is not through school as many ask, it is of a personal nature). I figured that if I paced my classes an hour apart as well as arriving up to an hour early to school, I could have time to study, review, and have some coffee at the same time. In the afternoon’s, I’d have a good three and a half hours before I would have to leave to get to my internship on time, and then, after my internship (which ends at 9pm), I could study some more — usually up until around midnight.

For four quarters, this method worked for me. Not only did I find time to study and write, as most of my classes required me to think critically, do research and write (look, no “Oxford Comma”!), but I also found time to join a campus club, participate in on campus events, and even make friends.


This lasted up until I began my fifth quarter. Once again, I spaced my classes out accordingly, however, since I was taking my first math class, I needed to make sure that there was as little writing as possible. As history had shown me, taking writing and math concurrently would be cause for overexertion. Even though this was just a Business Math class, or perhaps because of that fact, I wanted to make sure that I would be able to devote time to studying as well as be able to retain the information that I learned. This was especially important to me considering math is not my strong point, and yet this was critical to gaining my degree as well as for my future goals.


I ended up taking a Leadership & Management course which was only offered online (and still makes no sense as to why either) and a Public Speaking course (I’d have laughed last quarter had anyone offered this as a suggestion, so I am really surprised that I took it). I presumed that these classes would be more “hands on” rather than research and writing based.

I was wrong.

For the Leadership & Management class, the only thing that I did was write. There was barely an online presence from my instructor, and no guidance as to where in the chapter we were. In fact, it got to the point where I simply returned my textbook as I realized that there was no need for it. Every assigned paper basically required critical thinking, and the majority of my papers required to think about diversity and statistics in diversity on campus. As my campus is a very diverse place, I had already been giving that a lot of thought, making subconscious and conscious observations here and there every day. Those were simple enough papers to write. The other ones required some research, and yet were also simple enough as well.

One thing I learned this year:

As long as you put some effort into it, most teachers won’t grade you down for your opinion.

For my Public Speaking class, I didn’t realize how much writing would actually go into it. Shocked, really. We had to create preparation outlines and speaking notes, and learn the formal structure of a speech — which is just like an essay! Now that that class is over, however, I can much easier identify parts of a speech as well as create a much more helpful outline for when I write essays, so I am grateful for having taken that course — especially when that was one of the most difficult instructors that I have had.

These two classes and the amount of writing surprised me, and led me to not be able to devote much time to my Business Math class, which just meant that I had to try as hard as I could to succeed. This was no easy thing as, for this course, we were required to receive no less than a 70% on each test and if we received below 70% on the final — we fail. Fortunately, I received 84.13% on the final and am currently awaiting my final grade!

Having to devote so much of my thinking capacity to writing as well as to math has indeed exhausted me. I feel like I have gone through two quarters in one and am in need of a “thinking break”. As much as I would like to gain my degree as early as I possibly could, after five quarters I am going to take this summer off. In the fall, when I must begin regular math courses, I will talk with my other one or two instructors to see the amount of writing involved prior to taking the courses. This way, if there will be much writing, I can reduce my course load down to two courses instead of three, but still be steadily on my way to completing a college education!

In the meantime.

This summer, I am just sitting back, relaxing and for once — reading.

That is for another post altogether!

Post-College Reflection

Bernadette Rocha, 16 June 2015

After taking my last final of my 5th quarter in a row, it dawned on me as to how far I have come to reach this point.

After graduating High School in 2005, and graduating from a technical school for Medical Assisting in 2006, I never really did much with my life. I was still living in my old mindset where I basically didn’t give a you-know-what about — well, anything. So I did work here and there and just kind wasted the next few years doing nothing. That is, until I started volunteering at a day shelter for families.

By volunteering, not only was I helping staff with the families and children, but I also found that I began to care more. I began focusing my energy on not-caring, to caring about certain things for the right reasons. In this case — how can I personally make a difference in these family’s lives? During my time volunteering, I came to know the staff well, and the clients on a personal basis versus and “outsider” basis. Once you can consider the family’s as an extension of your own, then you know your mindset regarding how you view this population has changed. Via my ideas, how much I got along with the mom’s, dad’s, and their kids, I was able to work my way up to an internship — which is what I am doing now.

The internship started out with me having a few more responsibilities than that of your normal volunteer. Not too different. Then, after gaining trust, I was able to move from working as an intern at that larger site, to working at one of their smaller sites, but which was only open on the weekends and gave the families activities and field trips to do, and was centered around the children. This was a real eye-opening experience for me as, at this point, the families began telling me about how they came to have to stay in a shelter, and I even saw how, even though they were essentially homeless, that they were able to work together and be compassionate with one another — even more so than many people that I have met who had homes and were no where near having to be in this situation. Let me tell you, these family’s also share more of what they barely have than people I have come across who have much to share. This still puzzle’s me. [future post, end of June 2015: “Homeless Subculture: an Observation”]

Once I started the internship, and realized how beneficial it was for me, and how much I felt about how certain…aspects of the center could be run in a different direction, I became more and more interested in what I could personally do for that change to be created, from an administrative viewpoint. One day, I woke up and realized that I needed to get my you-know-what back to school and enrolled in my local college to earn an Associate of Applied Science – Transfer degree in Business Information Technology. I enrolled that Spring, of 2014.

After several months of going to school, and of doing the internship at the weekend location, I was asked if I would like to manage a small two-family (8 people total) shelter on my own. This would be a great learning opportunity for me, and I would still be able to continue at the weekend location (with reduced hours), so I agreed. The family’s that I worked with were both Ethiopian. Both of the mom’s cooked — a lot. They’d spend so much time cooking, and then insisting that I eat with them, that I ended up learning how to cook what they made so that I could help them. Also — aside from Vietnamese food, Ethiopian cuisine is one of my favorite foods!

An issue arose regarding lack of staff at another shelter location, through this particular organization, and I jokingly suggested that if they could find someone for the current space that I was at, that I would go to the other one and work. Apparently, they took it to heart, because within a couple short days, they were already preparing to have me begin working there for my internship instead starting the next week.

This shelter, where I currently work, houses up to five two-parent family’s. Each family has anywhere from 1-4 kids, and is a long term shelter. This means that as long as they are working with the organization doing what they need to be doing, and helping to maintain a calm and clean (through chores) environment, then they could stay until they are able to gain housing. Having been working here for about 5 months now, I can say that it is one of the most rewarding, and challenging things I’ve done. This job requires me to sacrifice a lot of my time, even overnight’s as well. Sometime’s, volunteer’s do not show up when they are scheduled and I have to work longer hours (fortunately, they hired me a helper for four days a week recently).

Working with 5 family’s, from all walks of life (so far: Micronesian, Polynesian, Ethiopian, Eritrean, and American) has been a blessing, but is also challenging. Not only must I learn about their different culture’s (which is something I absolutely enjoy doing), but I also have to learn about how each culture solves problem’s differently (as all of them, except for the American family are immigrant). I already had some practice with this from the previous two-family shelter, and the weekend day center, so I wonder if this was also why they had me go there to work.

Fortunately, I’ve only had to get involved with literally just a handful of disputes, but each time I have had to be creative. Since our American family is more individualistic and the other family’s were more collectivistic (thank you Psych 100 for teaching me about this concept), the way a couple of the dad’s viewed a particular problem was a complete culture clash, and ended up in an argument, which I had to intervene. After talking to each of them separately, I found of that the root of the problem layed in not so much the problem itself, but in how each of them viewed how they felt the other person should have managed it. We had to have a talk as a group about cultural differences, and how it was better to just have a conversation about their differences and try to work out a mutual understanding versus closed-minded arguments. Since then, things have been much smoother. This experience also made me realize that I had a lot more to learn in the area of mangement, supervision, and problem-solving in general. It was time to review my educational direction, once again.

Talking to my Adviser, we worked out that it would be beneficial for my current goals, as well as long term goals (which is scientific/psychological research & research based writing), that I should also work on an AAS in Supervision & Management. This would allow me to gain the skills necessary to better manage the shelter work I work (as well as for when I apply for an internal paid staffing position), as well as in the future when I have to manage a research project, or deliver a presentation, or etc. For this reason, this Spring quarter of 2015, in addition to the Business Math course that I just completed, I also took a Leadership/Management course (which involved a lot of writing!), and a Public Speaking course (which showed me how to gather my thoughts/research, organize it coherently, and deliver it).

School, for 5 quarter’s in a row, on top of my internship has been a blessing, but has exhausted me, which is why I am taking Summer 2015 off, and will resume in the Fall of 2015. In the meantime, I am looking forward to hopefully working with the main center (hopefully as staff as I did bring up my interest) during their daytime summer program for the family’s since the kids will be out of school and need something constructive to do. I am having a conversation with them tomorrow and am going to be going through a “new hire” orientation (which they say I should know since I work one-one-one with the family’s). After my conversation with my supervisor this morning stating that she wanted to see me tomorrow to “talk to me about the summer” (since she knows I am taking the summer off — fortunately they work with my school schedule) and assured me that I was not in trouble and was doing excellent, and wanted to make sure that I was going to the orientation, this could very well be really good news!


10 Things I Look for in a Guy

In order:
1. — Eyes.
I have always held a strange fascination for eyes ever since I was a child. So if I like a guy, chances are his eyes are what caused me to take notice originally.

2. — Smile.
A genuine smile from someone I care about will always light up my day.:-)

3. — Education.
Educated guys are hot. I like to learn so if a guy I am into can teach me some random, yet relevant thing that I did not know, then we’re in business.

4. — Food.
I heart foreign food. My favorite cuisine is Ethiopian/Eritrean. I also love Pho, Ramen, Sushi, Tamales, some Phillippino food, some Micronesian food, some Latin American food, and so on and so forth. So, whoever I like should be open to that delicious heaven too cuz thats whats for dinner!

5. — Movies.
I love movies. The guy I am with should either want to go to the movies with me or else want to watch them at home with me. I like many genres, just not Westerns.

6. — Video games.
I like guys who are into video games…but not to the point where it takes over his life. He should be willing to play with me because I like vidwo games too and never get the opportunity to play with others due

7. — Space.
I need my time. You need your time. 24/7 together will drive me crazy. I need time to miss you. Go hang out with the guys while I read a book, or go see a movie. Yes, sometimes I prefer them alone.

8. — Sports.
If a guy I am into is into sports, fine. I am not. This goes back to the your time vs. my time thing. Of course, if the Mariner’s are playing, I would be ok with catching that game (only in person) with you, but I am cheering for my hometeam.

9. — Paranormal.
Look. I am into the paranormal phenomena of the world. I believe in things like; reincarnation, angels, demons, extraterrestrials (or were they all the same?), multiple universes, the UNEXPLAINABLE in general. I also listen to Coast to Coast AM every now and then when I can’t sleep.

10. — Foreign Music/Movies/Drama.
This is a must. I like this stuff. A lot. Don’t make fun of me for liking it as well. In fact, embrace it cuz I’m going to expect you to watch/listen with me and enjoy it.

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